Saturday, December 19, 2009
I was reading my old diary book for the year 2006!!! and I just remember how crazy I was about David Ng, My then Art Teacher!!! He was like the first crush that I have a crush on at the first sight.... I have so many crushes (I just love boys... you cant blame me... I'm straight) but only 2 person made me feel like........"LOVE" AT FIRST SIGHT
the first is David Ng and the second one is a secret *blush*
I still remember the first time I saw him... It was the morning assembly on the first day of my second year in CWSS... I wasn't even paying attention to who ever talking in the old school hall....
and suddenly....
I was one heck of bright star among rocks (if you compare to other boys in CWSS) and I knew I was TOTALLY CRAZY IN LOVE!!! and I get really panic, anxious... asking the people next to me... who the hell is he ( rmb... I wasn't paying attention... so I missed a lot of details about him)
(okay I can't remember what happen after this)
The next thing I remember is that Mdm.Ng (a.k.a Stella Quah) was trying to assigned people to become the class representative... and (after hearing that he is going to replace Ms.Ng as Art teacher) I obviously volunteered myself to be THE ALMIGHTY ART REP!!!!
ohh... after that was HEAVEN...
I ended up loving art so much... never ever I worked so hard for school works!!! I got 95 for my art.. I spent my time sms-ing him... just wanted his attention.... well I don't hope much... He was just like a superstar and I'm his fans... I enjoyed it... (hopefully I didn't annoy him) hahaha...
I still feel happy even though of course he only treat me as a little girl not more than that... but he was just seemed very mature boy (especially when you are surrounded by childish sec2 boys =.=")
sms-ing him during classes and at night.... then together entering the lantern-making competition with the lamiiers!!! they are great memories...
Obviously now he already have an amazingly extremely sexy girlfriend... hahaha... ( I think even then He should had one)
I wish I could post our pictures together (I was desperate to get a pict with him that time....) but I dont have it here with me... the data is in my old comp in Melbourne... so... I will update this post l8r...
when I look back... I realized that I such a silly silly crazy girl!!!! (I perhaps still one) I might have done stupid things... and said crazy things... I might have laughed... I might have cried a river but then again I never regret doing those things and I treasure every split seconds I had :)
It was too dramatic too be true that it seems like a dream....
My life was a dream
Labels: craziness, Crush, school life, singapore
what we could have been, 1:33 AM.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
The almighty me have received FULL OFFER from both MelU and Monash... ( btw I just applied to 3 univ!!! ) but who gives a damn about monash... so I shall only post the MelU full offer... it's very similar to the conditional offer except for some sentences...
and btw
LOOK at this
SEE THAT??
you can call me arrogant... you can call bitch... whatever you wanna call me...
but this is the truth...
you can go fucking check it by yourself
I stil remember how most of the teachers and nearly all of 4/5 looked down on me...
I tell you (who once or still looked me down) " FUCK OFF" what ever... you say that studying in oz is fucking easy... then just come here and do it x)... I don't give a damn about which univ you are going or what is you pay for the job... what I give a damn is you who LOOKED DOWN on me and treated me as if I am stupid stupid gal who has no feeling..
blearghhh....
the reason for me doing so badly in 4/5 was obviously my mistake... (i never blamed anyone) but....
that doesn't mean you can treat me like I'm a trash or animal or anything you think is lower status than you!!!!
I still remember how one of the teacher asked me to drop the subject just days before O level... what kind of fucking teacher are you??? you just care about the MSG.... you don't deserve to be a fucking teacher...
and that pussy face said that boys are smarter than gals... asking us to admit it... puhhh leeeasseee... that's totally untrue...
you should add the words 'certain' before both of the boys and both of the gals...
and I heard from one of the teacher the whole fucking department force me to drop a particular subject... the HOD especially ( well I wont say which subject... incase they will sue me... for defamation) again... some teachers just care about MSG!!!
fuckers!!!
But of course there are others who have faith in me... like Mrs.Philip... I love her x) I really thank her... no matter how bad I was... how the whole world turn its back on me... she was there... helping me... encouraging me.....
I always remember what she said "count your blessings... never take things for granted"
and she is one of the greatest blessings I have ever received...
Besides her I have other teachers too... like Ms.Faith, Mrs.Anba, Cikgu As... and some others
and of course my bestie who stick by the super duper-emo me last year... x)
you know who you are x)
thank you very very much
and also for those who looked down on me... for those who insulted me.... laughed at me.... thank you!!!! I'm stronger and better than yesterday... your words are killing me no more...
HAPPY CURSING ME!!!!
what we could have been, 3:52 AM.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Actually
What do I want from me???
What do I want from me???
The usual simple me
or
The great almighty me???
but then...
the then me wasn't ready to out the best of me...
So.... is the now me, ready for the miserable heaven???
I have gone crazy, have longed, have felt insecure, have been anxious....
yeah I know I am a coward...I don't dare to make any decision as I am afraid of the consequences...
What do I want from me?
What do I want from me?
The great almighty me???
but then again
I am not fearless
I am not strong
Perhaps I need to turn into something that's not me in order to find myself
Perhaps now
Perhaps tomorrow
But... now... it's time to make a choice
what we could have been, 1:19 AM.
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Conditional Offers
1) RMIT
2) Mel U
Bleargghhh!!! that's the conditional offers from two of the three univ I have applied... I just need to wait for my exam results to be released =( I have very little confident on getting good marks T^T
and like I said in my previous post... I am not going anywhere this holiday... one of the reason is because of the university fee!!!
LOOK at yourself how FUCKING expensive it is!!! THIS IS CALLED CHEATING!!!! and unfortunately I let myself get cheated T^T If only I am a PR!!!! it would be 10x cheaper T^T
and as you know it's impossible for a person like me to get a scholarship!!! ahahhahaaha!!!!
I think to get scholarship for commerce!!! one must get an average of 96% in MelU...
this kind of mark can only be attained by unusual people (a.k.a weirdos)
*finger crossed*
*finger crossed*
Labels: Conditional Offer, melbourne university, RMIT, University
what we could have been, 6:09 PM.
Friday, December 04, 2009
This is totally unfair!!! I really wanna go to Japan since like 5 years ago!!! yet here I am in Indonesia!! stuck!!! NO VACATION for me this end of year!!! while others have went to Japan like 6x until they get bored of Japan!!!
I wanna go!!!!
I wanna go!!!!
My dream is to travel around the world... but I have only been to few countries
(T^T)
I hate having no money!!!!!
this is torturing me!!!
the countries that I have visited beside Singapore and Australia are only
-Korea (2x)
-China (Dozen x)
-England (1x)
-Malaysia (few x)
THAT's it!!!!
isn't that DAMN PATHETIC???
WHY???
WHY???
WHY???
okay!!! I really need to work and earn my own money so I can go!!! There's no hope getting money from my parents!!! When I go back to Australia, I will find a job and work to earn
more money... money... money!!!!
I will be very very stingy from now on!!! I will be a person who people called "cheap"
I will try my best to rent the cheapest house.. I think I should consider living in a living room!!! and I will eat all the CHEAP food!!!
I will not go to restaurant!!!
I wanna go!!!!
I wanna go!!!!
My dream is to travel around the world... but I have only been to few countries
(T^T)
I hate having no money!!!!!
this is torturing me!!!
the countries that I have visited beside Singapore and Australia are only
-Korea (2x)
-China (Dozen x)
-England (1x)
-Malaysia (few x)
THAT's it!!!!
isn't that DAMN PATHETIC???
WHY???
WHY???
WHY???
okay!!! I really need to work and earn my own money so I can go!!! There's no hope getting money from my parents!!! When I go back to Australia, I will find a job and work to earn
more money... money... money!!!!
I will be very very stingy from now on!!! I will be a person who people called "cheap"
I will try my best to rent the cheapest house.. I think I should consider living in a living room!!! and I will eat all the CHEAP food!!!
I will not go to restaurant!!!
I hate being a BIMBO!!!!
T^T
*I have no money no money... so sad... (no money...)* sings with Nobody- Wonder girls tune!!!
what we could have been, 2:10 PM.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
So It's all confirmed!!! I will not be going for vacation this holiday!!! due to some diseconomies of scale here!!! thus I as the eldest child must help my parents T^T
Now I really seldom surf the net except for checking mails and checking the 'MyMonash' for my results which haven't been released!!! I hope it will came out soon!! I have received two conditional offer!!! one from MelU and RMIT!! I wonder which university I will end up studying at!! Would I enter MelU that I somehow want to enter just because of "wanting to prove myself and bring 'Honour' -repeat- 'Honour' to my family " or Monash which was my original goal or RMIT the most practical university and where Ira is???
Well let's see!!!
what we could have been, 1:56 AM.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
I miss school!! this is true.. and this is the first time I miss school!! perhaps because my holiday is so very boring!!
I think I won't end up going to Thailand as planned (=.=") and My HongKong-Macau trip with Yin, Mandy and Jo will be in jeopardy as I am required to assist my brother with his coming 'O' level!!! Can't you believe that I am spending my days reading the Marvel Cavendish Chem and Physic to help my brother.. (T^T) nevermind.. I quite enjoy it!!
blearghhh!! I dreamt of having econs exam and comp sci exam last night!! it was terrible... worse than in real life... I can't answer any question... and this quetion came out for the comp sci... "what is compiler?" OMG!!!! that compiler question from comp sci part A exam haunts me until NOW!!!
I need to get over it... soon
I think I won't end up going to Thailand as planned (=.=") and My HongKong-Macau trip with Yin, Mandy and Jo will be in jeopardy as I am required to assist my brother with his coming 'O' level!!! Can't you believe that I am spending my days reading the Marvel Cavendish Chem and Physic to help my brother.. (T^T) nevermind.. I quite enjoy it!!
blearghhh!! I dreamt of having econs exam and comp sci exam last night!! it was terrible... worse than in real life... I can't answer any question... and this quetion came out for the comp sci... "what is compiler?" OMG!!!! that compiler question from comp sci part A exam haunts me until NOW!!!
I need to get over it... soon
what we could have been, 2:08 AM.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Disastrous BBQ at St.Kilda
I haven't upload all the photos!!! the reason is I was too busy meeting my darlings!!! ohohoho... Who are my Darlings??? well I shall upload the pictures one day and you will see who are my darlings!!
btw, an amazing fact about this month is.. I have eaten 13 ice cream for 11 consecutive days!!! I shall list which ice cream I ate and from here you could guess who are my darlings
- New Zealand (with Yin)
- McDonald (alone)
- McDonald(with Yin)
- Il Freddo (with Franky)
- Magnum (with C levin)
- Il Freddo (with Yin)
- Nestle Drumstick (on A380)
- Tempura Ice Cream (with San&meme
- Ben&Jerry (with San&meme)
- Ben&Jerry (Nisa&Serene)
- Island creamery (with dolly, nisa, serene, sya, and Zandra)
- i dunno what (with wan en)
- Azabu Sabo (with ko Adhi n C
what we could have been, 1:48 AM.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
I'm now in school!!
it would be my last day here ...(*´∀｀*)
actually the reason I came to Taylor is to take my dream man's picture!!!! hahahahaha! I need to go back ASAP!!
BUT HE IS HAVING A MEETING!!! so I AM WAITING
now is 12p.m!!! my flight is at 5!!! the skybus will fetch me at 3!!!
I haven't buy San's smith and Fang's twix!!!
and the worst of all is I still have 5 pairs of shoes with me... which I planned to keep it at Meng aik's place... but she never answer my phone... WUWUWUWU…(；´Д`)ﾊ
I will wait a little bit more then I really need to go... at least at 2 I must have reached home... which is like 2 hour left... i wonder if I can make it!!
hahahaha..
but I have packed all my bags!!
still I'm not ready to go... I hate to go... yet I refused to stay!!!
I'm truly in great dilemma!!＿￣O
btw.. see ya in Singapore
I'm taking A380 tonight!!!
wheeee~~~(・o・)ｂ
it would be my last day here ...(*´∀｀*)
actually the reason I came to Taylor is to take my dream man's picture!!!! hahahahaha! I need to go back ASAP!!
BUT HE IS HAVING A MEETING!!! so I AM WAITING
now is 12p.m!!! my flight is at 5!!! the skybus will fetch me at 3!!!
I haven't buy San's smith and Fang's twix!!!
and the worst of all is I still have 5 pairs of shoes with me... which I planned to keep it at Meng aik's place... but she never answer my phone... WUWUWUWU…(；´Д`)ﾊ
I will wait a little bit more then I really need to go... at least at 2 I must have reached home... which is like 2 hour left... i wonder if I can make it!!
hahahaha..
but I have packed all my bags!!
still I'm not ready to go... I hate to go... yet I refused to stay!!!
I'm truly in great dilemma!!＿￣O
btw.. see ya in Singapore
I'm taking A380 tonight!!!
wheeee~~~(・o・)ｂ
what we could have been, 11:49 AM.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Me and my dream man x)
Me and Marty Lyons!!! x)
the REASONS why I love him...
1) he is charming!!! (especially when he was 19 years old...) *blush*
3) he drives me crazy!!!
p/s: I start missing him already ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ。
Labels: martin lyons, melbourne, school life
what we could have been, 9:23 PM.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Mufy Maths Class 2009 line 7 Mr.Grealy
Look who's that??
Me and Claire!!! the God of Maths!!! LAWL
Me and Mario!!
The freaking expensive Graphic calculator, which now become a useless TRASH!!
The almighty Mr.Grealy on his mission to nurture the future generation
He was trying to act cute... trust me...
okay... another photo of him...( I know I sound sick.. taking too much pictures of him..)
He indeed have SEXY lips.. MUAHAHAHA
daddy Grealy and ME!!!
THE WHOLE CLASS (minus some absentee)
Labels: Maths, Me, melbourne, school life
what we could have been, 10:32 AM.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I wanna ask.. what would you do if you are just tired of chasing dreams??
I wonder what the hell I'm doing?
hahaha...
studying
eating
drinking
laughing
I wish everything would just stop
Don't get me wrong... it's not that I am giving up... It's not I'm not thankful for my life... but I just felt strongly that this life is just simply a life without happiness or sadness...
I wish I could sleep forever and never wake up...
not that I'm obsessed about dying...
but being alive bores me... hahahhaa
what we could have been, 11:54 PM.
When it comes to computer science... I give up even before fighting...
It's just too hard for me... T^T
I shall give you example on one of the easiest qn on VB
Dim val1 As Integer ‘val1 is a form level variable
Dim val2 As Integer ‘val2 is a form level variable
Private Sub Btn1_Click( )
val1 = val1 + 1
txtOutput1.Text = “VAL1 = ” + CStr(val1) + “VAL2 = ” + CStr(val2)
End Sub
Private Sub Btn2_Click( )
Dim val1 As Integer
val1 = 1
val2 = val2 – val1
If (val2 >= 6) Then
val2 = 1
End If
txtOutput2.Text = “VAL2 = ” + CStr(val2)
End Sub
Private Sub Form_Load( )
val1 = 7
val2 = 7
End Sub
_______________________________________________________
okay now after reading that fucking thing and tell me what happen when you press btn1, then btn2, btn2,btn1,btn2,btn1,btn2,btn2??
you know what happen???
I cry myself a sea!!!
and this is just one little thing that I need to do to prepare for my fucking exam.. and I just start studying... at least that fucking thing... is manageable... but I forgot the select case function on how to use it... OMG!!! haiz... reading is one thing... writing the code is another thing!!!
AAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! *screams in agony*
okay I should continue crying....
bye....
It's just too hard for me... T^T
I shall give you example on one of the easiest qn on VB
Dim val1 As Integer ‘val1 is a form level variable
Dim val2 As Integer ‘val2 is a form level variable
Private Sub Btn1_Click( )
val1 = val1 + 1
txtOutput1.Text = “VAL1 = ” + CStr(val1) + “VAL2 = ” + CStr(val2)
End Sub
Private Sub Btn2_Click( )
Dim val1 As Integer
val1 = 1
val2 = val2 – val1
If (val2 >= 6) Then
val2 = 1
End If
txtOutput2.Text = “VAL2 = ” + CStr(val2)
End Sub
Private Sub Form_Load( )
val1 = 7
val2 = 7
End Sub
_______________________________________________________
okay now after reading that fucking thing and tell me what happen when you press btn1, then btn2, btn2,btn1,btn2,btn1,btn2,btn2??
you know what happen???
I cry myself a sea!!!
and this is just one little thing that I need to do to prepare for my fucking exam.. and I just start studying... at least that fucking thing... is manageable... but I forgot the select case function on how to use it... OMG!!! haiz... reading is one thing... writing the code is another thing!!!
AAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! *screams in agony*
okay I should continue crying....
bye....
what we could have been, 2:13 PM.
Sunday, November 01, 2009
I know I'm supposed to be studying... but you see I have no mood to do so!!!
I really wonder how the hell I'm going to maintain my marks... hahahha
something irritates me...
you see it is somewhat a joy to be able to say "I score 90+ for all the subjects that I've taken.."
but due to English, I need to add extra words to my sentence... "except english"
and the fucking thing about this is It's not that I didn't get 90+ for my english but I can't confirm my overall results since buckley refused to tell me my score... =.=
I get 19/20 ,20/20 for my orals.... and high HD for my project... okay low HD for my composition...
so do I get an average of 80+ or 90+ I really have no idea...
I'm PISSED!!
PISSED!!
PISSED!!
btw, I might be moving to Unilodge College House next year... I wish our dream (yin and mine) about our new house will come true..
ok.. I should start to try to study now...
adieu
adieu
p/s: I miss Lyons and Grealy so very much... T^T
I shall tell you if it came true... if not... I shall let it remind a mystery!!!
what we could have been, 11:51 AM.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
With Mrs.Buckley!!!
the photos are great... but the background a lil bit disturbing!!!
and I can't wait to share my photos with Lyons, my dream man.. and my 'daddy' Grealy!! but.. you see I am 'busy' with my exams... I really misses my school.. T^T I love Taylors!! not so much but sufficient enough to make me feel a little bit sad >.<
Labels: friends, Me, school life
what we could have been, 1:02 PM.
